Heaps of wrath

My colleagues detest the way I work and discuss behind that I dont fit the lax work culture anymore. A mongoose with a blue face bites me.

Revelation

A psychiatrist once told me that suicide is not one event but a confluence of many happening all at once, and all of the conditions have to be right for the person to go through with it. First of all, you need despair, and yet strangely enough, while you are in despair the secons thing you need is the will to do it, which, when you think about it, is a strange combination. Third, you need the weapon;  fourth, you need to be alone; and fifth and last, you need the opportunity.

- Crossing the unknown sea, David Whyte

What about a young man working in a factory?
What reason can a school girl, a pharmacist's daughter have?
An overwhelmed mayor of Ashland?

When asked in The Power of Memoir to recall the deaths you know of as a child, the memory so neatly skips some. To remember death of a family number in its recounting, you should be at an age where you can realise its meaning of loss.

Can a felt loss of  a persons death be used as a definition of him/her belonging to a family?

A community calendar.

The siblings. While going to school, all my friends had their siblings along with them.

untold promise kept

Last night I slept around 10.34 when my eyes hurt. I gave myself to sleep with a hope/faith that I will get up early if my body has requiste hours of sleep.
In the morning I woke p at 4.50.

Good day

To catch a fail in hardware, the test engineer wrote a program to test all the cases. It takes a long time to simulate this. after taking a look at the fail, the design engineer wanted a test case with just the failing case. I asked the test engineer if he had a quick way of going to the error. Looking at the sim, design engineer had a clear idea of how to reproduce the fail. The test engineer had asked to confirm the fail for an untested combination. the fix had been suggested. From the fix, the error should be present in all the cases. when I could make a test just for the fail case, it felt good. When the untested condition wouldnt fail for the settings, it felt good figuring out the reason.
I am trying to figure the relation between us and our work.

Bibliomania

I was aching for writing books and the library spirits heard it and now I have my hands on The power of memoir  and The Journal keeper .

Now I can issue as many books as I want from the library. Well the limit is 35 or so and i dont reach that on crazy days too. How will I manage if I go to a place where you are allowed at the max 2 ? I want access to all the books in the world.

If the libraries dont have the books I want, I will have to get into the business of getting the books I want to the libraries.

Library as a temple.

Today is the first time my alias from a dream and a poem from dream get online. My Blue Notebook.